Not 14 cents short. 14 cents OFF. I worked an entire day to get our personal finances in order, only to end up 14 cents off. It might as well have been $1400 off. Actually, that would’ve much easier to find!
And this doesn’t end with bookkeeping. Right now, it feels like my entire life is 14 cents off. I need to get childcare for some upcoming events: all my regulars are booked. There are appointments to be scheduled: they won’t return my calls. Laundry: I think our socks are having babies and leaving their mates. Jerks.
I could go on, but suffice it to say, I’ve been hopelessly overwhelmed. A few days ago, I sat on my couch frozen from the sheer weight of it all. The well was dried up and I had nothing to offer all the loose ends. Honestly, I was really down. REALLY down. And that’s just not me.
It was like God started waving the red flags in my heart. I had to deal with this. Now. And by “deal”, I don’t mean continuing to hammer at that list of unfinished business. I shut it down and let it all sit for about 3 days. And although that meant more sock babies, it also meant finding center again.
I sat with my 6 year old to work a 500 piece puzzle. We would work a little here, a little there. Sometimes, we’d be there an hour, sometimes just 5 minutes. Never did we weary of the process. We wouldn’t have enjoyed it if it were quick and easy. As we plugged away, I could see the Holy Spirit teaching me the greater lesson: when you trust there’s a bigger picture, you can tolerate the details. Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” (NIV, emphasis mine)
It does all happen for a reason. And I don’t have to know the reason to trust its validity, because I trust in the One who is making it all work together for my good. Even my promiscuous socks.